Driving Forward... Not Looking Back...

Hello faithful readers,
I know that it has been over a month since my last post but I am happy to say it has been for good reasons! I GOT A JOB! Yippy! The story behind it is pretty amazing and a true testament as to how things can really work out for the good!
It all started when a friend from college called me up to let me know that she went on an interview with a company and just didn't feel like it was the right job for her. There was nothing wrong with the position, just not what she was looking for. She felt that it was right up my alley and thought I might be interested. Well she wasn't lying, it really was right up my alley and it was a perfect fit for me. With in a day I went up for the interview and the same day I was hired. I started the next day and have been loving it ever since. The pay wasn't the greatest in the world and it is a drive but some times we have to make little sacrifices for better things to come. Well after a few days of proving myself my boss gave me a raise. I guess you want to know what I do now, I work for Abracadabra Video as their Office Manager and Production Coordinator. After mentioning to him that I do photography, he took a look at my portfolio and decided to add me as their Photographer! I was so excited about that, photography is such a great passion of mine and one that I never really planned on getting paid to do. After a few days of chatting and actually getting to know me he realized that he didn't really read over my resume too much, they were in such desperate need of someone that whoever wanted the position was pretty much hired. He has started to give me more and more responsibility and it feels great! I accomplished exactly what I wanted to accomplish, finding a job that I truly love!
It's funny, I planned and prepared so hard to make my resume look good and it didn't matter. For the first time in an interview I could truly be myself and not stiff and be what they wanted me to be and thats the job I get. Everything works out for the best in the end. I can always feel calm in the storm with the knowledge of even though I don't know the future it will always be better. Faith and Hope can pull you through so many terrible and uncomfortable situations.
Another valuable lesson that I learned through this experience is to stop being what everyone wants you to be or be the person that they are looking for. When you are true to yourself, you will never fail! It may  look like failure is all around you but it's only a mirage. If there is one thing that I have struggled to overcome in the past couple of months and a good part of my life is the feeling of being a failure. It is so easy to look around you and see things that didn't go right and call that a failure. It may be a failure but not necessarily on your part. For me, I took the failure of my relationship very personally. I felt that I had done something wrong or I just wasn't good enough and it had nothing to do with that. Sometimes we take on other people's failures because we think we have to or that someone has to. We don't even if they can't see their failures doesn't mean we take them on. Sometimes its good to just leave the baggage in the middle of the road instead of carrying it for someone else. Eventually they are going to have to deal with it.
As I was driving to work the strangest thing happened, I caught myself saying I came from the darkness and have enter into the light. I literally had, it was so dark and stormy at home and then all the sudden as I was approaching my exit the brightness was overwhelming, the clouds were a beautiful creamy white and the sky was so blue, bluer than I have ever seen. I didn't expect it at all, it came out of nowhere. I didn't even realize how dark it was at home until I had become consumed in the light. You see the light reflecting off of things and everything looks so shiny and beautiful and new. It's strange because I feel that way about my life, I had no clue as to how unhappy I was until I was happy. Now everything looks so much better than it did before.
So, I plan on driving more and more towards the light and keeping the dark skies in my rearview mirror.
Drive on...