Fish in the Sea

In the search for my perfect job I have seen nothing but failure. This is starting to get depressing! And might I say frustrating!! I realize that it is not failure on my part but more of a lack of respect on the employers part. In the last year I have applied for 1000's of jobs, many of them are applications sent off into the world wide web (I'm beginning to think it's a blackhole of nothingness). I have received a few responses back on those jobs I have applied for and I have been on interviews. It's funny I use to consider myself as a closer, I could close the deal with anyone, I could sell myself like no other. I don't feel like I am not selling myself well cause every interview I go on I get that look from the employer that leads you to think, "I nailed it" and I always get the response of "you are a top candidate". But I find myself always feeling like I am number 2, not number1. So what's wrong? These employers lead me on, making me think that I have the job and then all the sudden I get. "I'm sorry we decided to go with someone that is over qualified for the position" or the latest, "We decided to put the position on hold since we had hired for another position and they are going to do both positions at the same time'. So what was the point of WASTING MY TIME??? Seriously! The thing that erked me the most about this particular employer is at the interview I was extremely hesitant about leaving a book of my materials but because I was promised that I would be back for yet another interview within the week, I left it. STUPID, STUPID, STUPID, I should ALWAYS listen to my gut. Two weeks later, no response from the company and then a "you can come pick it up". Thank you for making me drive yet another 1 1/2 hour to come to your business and waste my time again. I got no apology, no "can we send you this material back", nothing. What happen to respect? These companies have forgotten how to respect the "little people". I told the company they should mail me my material since it was based on their response that I was "coming" for a 3rd interview that I left it. Needless to say, no response yet. Sad thing is the lady said that they would like to hold onto my resume for possible positions in the future, I told her to disregard it. I don't work for companies that play games. If you are this disrespectful to me before I am even hired then how are you going to treat me once I am. It's like relationships, if the guy is a jerk when you're dating do you seriously think he is going to treat you any better once your married? All venting aside, it was very upsetting for me because this was the exact position I wanted and didn't think existed and it was sad to see it not work out. I am okay with not getting the position, it's just the lack of respect that bugs me. So after my night of sulking and digging holes in the yard, I am over it and started back at square one... AGAIN... Someone once told me "Jobs are like men, there are plenty of fish in the sea", my reply "you're right and it's hard to find the right one. They are either already taken or pointless." Guess I'll keep fishing, maybe I cast my rod across the sea... to maybe England... We will see... Cheerio